first blog post! or, the reason for all this garbage
so i've made a blog. who knows if i'll keep this going. just need something to keep me tethered to this planet earth besides my cat and the idea that people will be upset if i'm gone. a good place to leave behind some "thoughttrash" such as ideas for ttrpgs (devlogs?), throwaway fiction, life developments and other diaristic endeavors. i don't really plan on promoting this or posting anywhere, and i don't really have any social media of note anyway, so if you've found this - congratulations! you're probably one of four people to ever see this blog in the history of mankind. you're rarer than people who have been on the moon!
why start a blog?
idk honestly. i think i'm just so tired of having everything live in my head. if i make a game or come up with ideas for things or just want to rant about bullshit, i can put it here instead of making my girlfriend listen to me yap for hours without a break. it's as good a reason as any ¯_(ツ)_/¯
what's going on now then?
i'm currently working on a ttrpg that involves a sort of spend-system for combat where the dice are rolled at the start of each round and spent throughout to do actions. i will probably post in more vivid detail later on. i am starting to think i am cursed and that i am forever destined to never be able to have a tabletop game last more than three sessions. i know it's not my fault (or at least not purely my fault) ((at least not the fault of my game-mastering)) because it doesn't matter whether it's me who runs the game or someone else. whether i am a GM or a player. no more than three sessions. maybe i'm just awful to be around for games, who's to say. but regardless, hopefully the system i'm working on turns out good and people will use it with their own friends and enjoy it, and have long campaigns that far outlast my own!
i'm also kind of working on a novel, but then again who isn't, but then again am i really working on a novel if i haven't written anything concretely? i have the ideas all up in the noggin zone, but haven't actually committed anything to text. hopefully outlining will begin eventually. it'll be like an undersea Star Wars, except instead of being a force between cosmic magical good and evil, it'll be between a bunch of people who get powers from an eldritch sea monster from space. we'll see.
so anyway...
if you're still reading, who knows why, but you have a little piece of me. so thanks i guess. in a way, you're holding more of me than a lot of people ever do. even something as simple as this seems to be more than most people are ever really interested in receiving. if you find anything i talk about here on this site interesting for any reason, or just want to get in touch, feel free to message me through email at [] . i have an instagram, but i like to keep things relatively low-tech and less likely to suffer from platform breakdown, especially in an increasingly enshittified internet. if gmail ever shuts down, i'll post something new (assuming we still have the internet by then, and assuming we haven't all burnt up to crispy little toastlets from climate change)